There were a few people I talked to about this over the weekend..

I needed confirmation. That, or I was just scraping for a reason to fall back into it.

Back on Friday, I noticed it. It wasn't anything big, but it was big enough for me to notice. It didn't click until the following day, where at that same moment, I called Stace and Jane about it.

I didn't want to believe it at first. I mean, I just got over it. I don't think I'm ready to fall back into it, even if it did turn out the way that I've been hoping.

But the fact is, I don't know if I am ready for it. I don't know if I'm ready to face the consequences of having to deal with it. I'm afraid of the substantial loss associated to it. But the fact is, I couldn't stop thinking about it. It occupied my mind, as it continued to reward me with pleasant memories and unforgettable moments. It made me happy thinking about it. I saw a future in it.

But I'm not willing to risk everything for it anymore. I don't know if its worth losing what I have now, to get what I think I want later.

What is it? Ask her yourself.